I am part of this soul-enriching Creativity Salon. For this weekend we have the task to think about and to share our big creative vision which we hope to realise for ourselves.
My first reaction was mental paralysis. But after a good dose of coffee I had more sense to work with. Of course I already know what my big creative vision is. I went back to my journals from this year and took the time to put the pieces of a puzzle that already answers this important question. This year is when a lot of things started falling into place for me, including the things in my head and my heart. That is why this year's journals are my most precious yet.
So these words capture some of my perspective on the creative work that I wish to do -- there is a quote I am trying to locate but it speaks of artists as being Agents of Hope (basically we create "products" for the uplifting and comfort of the spirit) and also, according to Joseph Campbell, artists are "shamans and myth-makers of the modern world", we help create the foundations that will anchor the beliefs and values of the future generations:
In the months leading up to the October Bootcamp (and later on the Creativity Salon), I have been feeling that sense of readiness to take my creative journey farther forward. There has been a constant simmering restlessness inside me that was soothed only when I sit down to paint or write. Ideas marched in my head, relentless and merciless, demanding to be given form. There has been a build-up of energy, propelling me into many small various actions that planted seeds everywhere.
I filled pages of my journals with images and words, trying to pin down the patterns and to trace the maps of where I am supposed to go and what I am supposed to do. I hesitated and and I dilly-dallied in fully embracing courses of action that either made me feel afraid or guilty (of selfishness). But in the end there is either the acceptance or the refusal of the call, and I have already gone far too deep into the forest to turn back.
All those explorations were pre-work for pinning down the steps I do need to make to become the person living the life I dream of. I want an artist's life, a true authentic way of creative living that is an expression of both my inner and outer worlds. I am perfectly aware of hard realities in my outer world that is why my inner world (values, imagination, faith, passion --- the clockwork of the soul) is something I hold almost sacred and non-negotiable. What is inside will fuel the outside (sometimes this is all I ever have to work with given frequent financial constraints).
So my big creative vision, expressed in specific actionable terms, begins with a proper "official" launch of myself as an artist. A common term would be an art exhibit. But I would rather call it a creative exhibit. Call me old-fashioned but an online coming-out or debut is not enough for me. I want a physical actual event. A real place where real people can go. And then the rest, I hope, will make for good history.
I had thought I would be able to make this happen this year but at the rate I am moving I doubt I will make it. There is next year, though, which also promises better dayjob arrangements so possibilities look good.
I don't want to rush the "launch" just for the sake of getting it done as soon as possible. I am not going to ignore lessons learned from sixteen years in marketing and advertising. The "launch" has to be true, and it has to be what I need it to be, not other people's design or idea of what it should be. So I will continue to be patient, and I will continue to practice and progress every day.
In fact, now that this is all out loud and clear in the open, I am suddenly cognisant of real actual tasks to be done. Such as taking inventory of finished works. Signing and making certificates of authenticity. Having pieces framed. Becoming more conscious of the themes and stories I wish to feature and highlight -- and creating pieces accordingly. Inquiring more diligently on potential suppliers such as printers, framers, venue managers, and the like. --- Heck, I think this even deserves a project notebook all its own just to make sure everything is in one place (and to pool all the energies towards its realisation).
So this is it. My big creative vision, target 2016. Wish me potfuls of good luck (preferably harvested from the end of rainbows).